How to want what never was.
You must write down affections here.
You must see in her mind the face
Slightly smiling, and dear,
Not cloudy and wrong from memory,
But the face when it is near.
The face of thought on the train.
A sweet memory, without strain.
You must converse, and have that kind of happiness.
You must cling to her in the best fragments,
Forgetting the plot.
She misses you a lot.
Yes, she misses you,
And the suffering is bad—
But trying not to miss you because she is angry at you
Makes her even more sad.
How to want what never was.
You escaped all of this. Be glad.