Madness is caused by too much goodness.
When I was bad, I relaxed and loved.
Too much goodness is madness.
The thesis may be difficult to prove,
But it’s true: sanity is when you don’t give a fuck:
I’m still in love with her; she’s moved on.
Years later I still obsess about her, because
She doesn’t give a fuck. I was her pawn.
I was afraid to make her angry. She was always angry.
I was loving and good and never let myself be angry with her,
Until one day, I got really angry at her
Because I never let myself be angry with her,
And I did something stupid and lost her forever.
I’m the crazy one because I still love her
And she’s sane, because she doesn’t give a fuck.
She didn’t give a fuck about anything.
She wanted to be anonymous. Kissing her
Was like kissing water. I knew her
Not to want anything: kids, career,
Art, she didn’t want to make anything,
Didn’t want to leave a mark.
Smile or frown, she liked to disappear into the dark.
Not giving a fuck is why she’s sane—
She continues with her pretty life.
She’s gone, and yet I love her—my caring is my pain.
I never knew someone so sane, so beautiful.
And this was because she didn’t give a fuck,
And I was expendable, another source of her rage;
She cared, like the rest, about looks, about age,
But too care that we care is what makes us insane;
And everyone knows love is the worst madness of all.
The good care, and this defines madness.
Not caring protects one’s happiness and gladness.
The bad can fall into ruin, it’s true,
But they ruin their body, and don’t lose their mind when they do.
The self-centered are sane—the things they care about are few.
The proof is seen in religion—don’t religions seem completely mad?
Fanciful, superstitious, yet strict, sadly seeking to make people less bad?
The good find it difficult to reconcile
The bad with the religious desire for good—since the world is bad all the while;
The world, which doesn’t give a fuck,
Makes those who care too much—simply out of luck.
By all that’s sane and beautiful! If only she would kiss me again!
Exactly as before! When she seemed to give a fuck, back then.
